something to push him over the edge. i told my husband, it was their fault. she pushed him. >> just the waiting game you know? >> the wait needs to be over. how are you really doing? >> i'm missing my kids. missing my family. missing you. >> i miss you, too. >> that's the hardest part, really. wishing i could go back and redo that day. you know? >> the day. the whole month. >> just dwelling on everything. >> joanna says the agreements the two couples made were not adhered to by diana and david. >> it was all supposed to be out in the open and nobody seeing each other without their spouse knowing. there was never supposed to be any secrets between any of us. they were infatuated with each other. it was obvious it was more than