i really don't -- >> what is it about hearing yourself say that, why does that make you emotional? >> because i never thought that i would say that. i never imagined that -- like i'm 18 years old. i'm not a drug addict. i don't abuse drugs, but, yeah, i am. yeah. it hurts to say it, but it's the truth. a lot of women have actually told me you remind me of myself when i was that age. it's really scary thinking that could be me in 30, 20, 10 years, somebody that is in and out of jail, still an addict. >> though day has never met kathleen blaha she could well be describing her. blaha says her drug addiction spanned some 20 years and