letter and a stockpile of prescription pills in his cell, they put him on suicide watch. a measure he insisted was unnecessary. mcdaniel was taken off suicide watch the following day. several weeks later he admitted that, despite his earlier denials, he was suicidal. >> when i wrote the letter, right, i had intentions of o.d.'ing because my kids wrote me a letter and told me the day they was coming, right? i was going to wait until after visit and take them that night, right? but it's a good thing they come in the room, man. >> you were, then? >> yeah. yeah. no doubt about it. >> mcdaniel says his despair was over the impact his