>> orosco pays for commissary from money put on his books, a debit account funded by family members, including the one person to whom he feels closest. >> my biggest thing is my mom. she is always there for me. she says i am her child regardless. three doritos. she has never neglected me or said i don't want you to be gay. >> that's everything. >> but she has always kept that in my head that -- you know it is not right. you know the way you are living is not right. and you know it is not godly. and you know that in the end you are going to pay for it. deep inside i know it is true. i know it is not right. but do i think that i will go to heaven when i pass away? part of me wants to believe it.