and natural life you'll never be able to come out again. you will die there. there's times that i want to end my life because of it. i just can't believe that we're here. i can't believe that my sons are -- i'll never see my sons again, my boyfriend again. just off of one mistake. >> cermano now holds out hope that the prosecutor will quickly accept his plea proposal for natural life. if for no other reason, he might get to sign the paperwork at the same time his mother signs hers. >> this is the last time i'll ever get to see my mom, so hopefully i'll have this court date on the 23rd and we'll see what happens, be able to hug her one more time, and that's it. >> step out, kunkel. >> cecil kunkel's future is largely in his own hands now.