completely damaged them, that will never go away, ever, for any of us. >> i remember, i said to you, i want to hear you say that you killed jenny. and i realize how hard that was for you but you did it. and for you -- and so everything just changed, because mark's reaction and he didn't try and act like, i didn't do it or it was your fault or -- but, no, i had to know. did jenny suffer? and from what mark told me, i believe that it was very quick. and so that has given me peace. >> when i walked out of there, i was probably 80 pounds lighter. you know? and i never since that day have ever had that same recurring dream. i don't think about mark the way i did. and it was a great release. >> thank you. you guys are so great.