i'm not a rapist or -- i'm a gang dropout. you can be whoever you want to be. you can be a transvestite. you can be a snitch. and no one is going to trip on you. if i go to main line, let's say i get escorted past the main lines, they are going to call me a piece of [ bleep ] rat because i've told certain things to get here. >> is your life in danger? >> yes. if i go to the main line, if i go to the streets and they recognize me as a gang dropout, they're going to try to hit me, which means kill me or slice me or shoot me. >> when he was younger, george might have carried out that very hit. but as he rose through the ranks, he questioned his involvement in the gang. >> it took me from '88 to '99 to figure out that it was a big old lie, big old smokescreen. most of the people who are calling the shots are lifers anyway. and misery loves company. they would like to see you as a violator doing life just like them, caught up in the system doing life. >> you're moving my head that way. >> i'm not moving it. you're moving it. >> i want a nice little haircut and he gives me a bald head. whatever the barber says goes.