dragqueens. any lube or stuff you need, hit me up. >> but now she was about to try something new. >> i'm going to escape from my unit and go to a baptism, hopefully get dunked in the water, have a wet t-shirt contest, praise jesus. you know? yeah. that kind of thing. i'm just doing -- i'm not really a bible thumper. i believe in god. i'm actually doing it to get out of the unit. it's that boring in here. yeah, uh-huh. >> she was talking about the baptism as if it was something to kill time, something fun to do. and then there was a moment where she really stopped and realized what she was doing and then she began to get emotional. >> stalbird says the recent death of a good friend caused her to re-evaluate her life. >> i just had a moment where -- a moment of clarity, i guess. >> what happened? >> confusion, anger, hostility.