sometimes it's all right. it's stressful. not being out there. you know what i mean. what i really learned is i need to get out there to my son. that is the only thing that is really stressing me out. because i want to seriously be a father figure. because i know what it feels not to have a father. i don't want to see him going through the same thing. >> you didn't have a father? >> i had one, but in and out. right now i'm following in his footsteps. you know what i mean? >> when was the last time you actually got to touch your child? >> i ain't. >> you never touched your child? >> huh-uh, so i am tying to stay sane, man, trying to calm down. >> it has been several months since brian edmonds has touched or spoken to his son, brian jr., who is incarcerated one floor below him. >> when he first got locked up, we used to come out and visit together. but we had an argument, and they put keep-aways on us.