scheduled execution. >> when they were restraining me with full restraints, the handcuffs and chains i was walking from here over to where the big visitor room is at, they were watching me 24 hours a day. you can't even use the bathroom unless they have to write it down on the log. i was in another world. literally. i had to be in another world. because if not, i would have cracked down and resorted to my suicidal tendencies that i experienced during the course of my whole life. >> just one day before his scheduled execution, abu received a visit from a federal investigator. >> and i looked at her. and she said she finally got a stay. and that's when i almost said if it wasn't for this shelf life thing, the hold me as i was going down, i probably would have fell all the way to the floor.