prison now and now i'm a dropout. what i call my career, it's over. and at first it was hard for me to deal with. i'm not going to lie. i didn't like it. but it was either learn to deal with it and accept it or try and pretend like you can stay on the mainline and get moved on and i'd get moved on by my own people. i'd either get sliced or i'd get stuck. >> surrounded by other gang dropouts in protective custody, kirkpatrick also began to realize that not only would his former gang take him out for making a mistake, they were never really the family he thought they were. >> don't nobody care about me. nobody from my neighborhood wrote me a letter. >> that's right. nobody from the neighborhood wrote you a letter. nobody cares no more. >> the only people that care is your moms. >> is your mom. and you only got one or two friends. >> while kirkpatrick still had challenges ahead of him inside san quentin, the biggest challenge he faced was outside the prison. it involved his relationship with his third family.