the first time we really spent christmas together. >> yeah. >> i felt like -- i missed something, too. i was a kid, i was probably about 12. that was the first time i ever thought you really loved me. other than that, i ain't never had -- i don't know what the hell love is. i rather not have shoes, clothes, all that materialistic [ bleep ] and have my mom and my dad. that's just how i feel. i wish i would have had my mom and daddy. i feel like i would have been all right. i would have had mobiles and principles, you know what -- morals and principles, you know what i'm saying? it's stuff i never had. >> moments later, edmonds jr. brings up his father's recent relationship with another woman and her young daughter. >> and you on the phone telling her you -- you love her and her child. >> nah, i wasn't even talking to her -- >> you love her and her child. >> i write you every -- i write you every day -- >> hold, hold. no, no, no. you ain't going to go through all that. >> i write you all day through the work aides.