is designed to break your spirit and cop the plea bargain to get out. it's designed to break your will to accept that plea bargain, and that seems so un-american. it's all meant to break your spirits and just knowing that makes it easier for me and i'll always say they'll never break my spirits because i know that's what they're trying to do. >> benny alonzo is struggling to keep his spirits up, but not due to the discomfort of jail. >> my head twists and turns, my heartaches and yearn, yearns for the warmth of your touch, for the love of your kiss and your hugs. >> less than 24 hours earlier, he appeared in court to be sentenced on the first of his charges. felony gun possession. he had hoped to see his girlfriend there but did not. >> the sentencing wasn't what bothered me the most. what bothered me is nobody was there. just out the door. it just hit me and it hurt. kind of felt like i was abandoned. i was left by myself. i guess it's because me and my