probably going to get hurt and stage four, i've been here too long, i'm going to die over here. >> that's a bad stage. >> what stage are you at now? >> oh, it changes. right now right now as i'm sit hearing i feel very quite comfortably in stage two. you don't really go back to stage one by the way. the stage one, i'm invincible, i'm superman, when something happens and you hear the crack of a bullet nearby, stage two is a happy, comfortable place for me. what i'm doing is dangerous and i might get hurt. that's reasonable. stage three i'm probably going to get hurt is a darker place. because then you think every day your hour glass is draining. and stage four is there's just a few grounds less in the hour glass and you're just a dead man walking. >> so do you have a personal life? and i'm not asking if you date. i'm asking do you have a personal life that you can say