the lead singer of screwdriver. it was a skinhead organization in the late '70s, early '80s. in the '90s, it split into two different factions. the blood and honor i belonged to was combat 18. or c-18. the 18 stands for 1 and 8 for the letter a and h for adolf hitler. >> is that good? >> when i saw pierson born, i saw god that day. that was one of the strangest, greatest feelings that i'll probably never feel again. you know the first time you ever hold a baby with that kind of love is amazing, it's truly amazing. and it's really hard to put it into words. he's -- every breath i take is for him. i just want to do everything for him. give him everything i never had. >> i used to carry a straight razor. and i would use it to -- in bar fights and whatnot. i kind of put it on my face as more of a trademark and also a