a little bit. you know? >> at one point when we were spending time with josh, he actually received a postcard from a friend who had been recently released from prison unexpectedly. >> 17 years this clown has known me and he can't spell my name right. it's easy to spell. p-i-k-e. he spells it p-e-c-k. >> what does that spell? >> peck. it spell he's stupid. he's dumber than a box of rocks. there's no help for him, you know. he was hooked on phonics, he got booked on chronic. you know what i mean? he said it's hard getting a job. he's trying to make it out there. he's trying to do good. >> i asked him if when he got that postcard if it got him thinking about what he wanted for his own life if he ever made it to the outside. >> last time when i got out i knew in my head i wasn't done yet because i wasn't willing to give up drugs. you know what i mean? it's a big part of my life. it's been 17 years i've been doing drugs. this time i'm ready. i realize it's the problem that's compounding everything. i'm done.