to see the body. so they just brought me back to a separate room and gave me her purse, which was horrible, even the sight of it. it smelled like gasoline. it was dirty. everything inside was snapped. they said the purse was found next to the body and just the way it smelled, the way it looked, that that's what happened to whitney. and it was really hard. >> newell was making arrangements to fly back from mississippi. colleen's pastor offered to drive her to indiana. five hours away. >> when you got to the hospital, if this were a movie, the mother or the father would have walked in and said, i know she's gone, but take me to see my little girl. >> you know, i have a beautiful picture of whitney in my head. i want -- i didn't -- >> yes. >> i keep stuff in my head.