>> i have a hard time with my kids sitting on my lap, the boy. the girl, she's not allowed to sit on my lap. i don't -- won't change diapers i don't -- won't change diapers for the girl. my kid rubs my leg and i smacked his hand. >> carla modahl bounced from one foster home to the next, took to the streets, got addicted. >> i have a lot of suicide attempts on my life from the guilt that i've carried. a lot of guilt. >> you were 10. it wasn't your fault. >> i may have been 10, but i knew right from wrong. >> to this day, the d.a. stands by the convictions. he declined our request for an