the hardest thing about all of this is how duho you smz honest life with the lie? >> you did before this year. there were some people you let know essentially as a means to get help. how did you decide who to trust with that information? >> that's a really good question. you know, i have been the beneficiary of kind, generous americans, american citizens. i've been referring to them as my underground, my personal 21st century underground railroads, with all due respect to african-american history. i don't know what they saw in me when i was younger. when i told mrs. denny. the choir teacher said she planned a trip to japan, and i told her i couldn't go. she's like, okay. she thought maybe i couldn't afford it. i told her i didn't have the