we just kind of hit it off, and to be around somebody that was enlightened and real spiritual, which i didn't even understand. every single day now is a good day for me. i don't have good and bad days. i've got good days and i've got better days. what went through your mind when you first heard there was a sex tape out? i mean, you used the n-word in this sex tape. that was the nuclear bomb, right? yeah, it was. if this tape wasn't leaked, and suppose there was no gawker trial, you think you'd be using that word today, when you got angry?