the country, it's great to have a dad with a steady job. with you it is also hard to live up to. he spoke at your high school graduation. had you to introduce him. what's that like because is he such a brilliant speaker? >> it was fun. i think i did a pretty good job of introducing him until i actually had to say his name and i mispronounced his first name. that was a little bit awkward because usually i just called him dad. didn't have a lot of practice there. i don't know how many people noticed that but it kind of spoiled the experience a little bit for me. it was a great honor to be able to do that. brian: how much do you miss him. >> very much. every day there is something i want to tell him about. it's still at the point where i have to remind myself that i can't anymore. that's pretty difficult. ainsley: my mom said the same thing when she lost her parents. hardest part was not being able to pick up the phone and hear their voice. >> exactly. yeah, my kids just won't to get to know him as much as i wanted to. ainsley: they will because of his book. all of his speeches are in