>> i don't want to spend my life in here. i don't want to die in here. it would have been better to have a death sentence than to be in prison for life. >> sex, murder, and betrayal. drama in a small town school district. it was a story that shocked the nation. tonight, after 25 years behind bars, the woman at the center of it all pamela smart is telling her story. this is a special edition of "on the record," deadly affair, pamela smart in her own words. ♪ >> may 1st, 1990. 24-year-old gregory smart murdered in his home in dairy, new hampshire. >> the door was open when i came through. it was cracked. so when i came in and i opened the door, my husband was right there. >> 16-year-old william billie flynn draws a 8 caliber pistol and shoots smart in the back of the head had. while patrick randal and