virtually everything done to him as a heart patient. >> when these things happened to you, were you afraid? >> the first time around, first heart attack i was. in terms of, you know, you wake up, you are 37 years old and you are in the hospital and you have had a heart attack. that's sharp. it's disturbing, if you will. over time you learn to live with it the book in part is about this. it's hopeful. you can have coronary heart disease, heart disease and lead a relatively normal life. i certainly did. >> when you got the heart transplant, were you fearful when you went in for that operation? that's -- >> -- no, i was hopeful. i was optimistic. the hard part was the operation before that. >> do you fear death? >> do i fear death? i didn't feel that way when i faced it when i got to the point where i was near death. i guess talk about in the the book when i went into end stage heart failure. my heart is so weak it's no longer providing blood