sort of a good lesson for young people hopefully that read the book that we reap what we sow. it's a universal principle. everything seemed like it was going wonderful. behind the scenes i was make bad choices in who i was hanging with and all unraveled with. >> anna: what were some of the things you were doing and what did you lose because of it? >> drug, alcohol, women, and i lost my family. i had a beautiful wife and two kids. one guy said, you didn't lose them, you gave them up. he said i was chase ago life of folly. >> brian: you got a lot of money, unbelievable shape, playing to packed arenas. so you had all the trappings of fame and fortune. what was the allure that was -- you weren't prepared for? >> well, i think with anybody, i'd go home, play the good father and husband in atlanta where i lived and get on the road and i guess i didn't have any accountability. there was always temptation out there. i didn't have the accountability