>> shepard: the only survivor that horrible fire in yarnell, arizona is speaking out now. he did an interview with good morning america. he said he wept numb after he learned the men he considered his brothers were dead. >> i asked a million times why am i sitting here? and why isn't someone else -- why aren't they sitting here with me? >> shepard: remember that out-of-control wildfire trapped and killed 19 elite firefighters back on june the 30th. mcdonough said his times with that crew were both the best and worst memories of his life. meantime, the widow of one of those deceased firefighters say she is fighting back after the city of press cot, arizona, reportedly denied her lifetime health and pension benefits because they said her husband was not a full time employee. the families of 13 part-time firefighters were reportedly receive a one-time payment of $328,000. the nation's military suicide rate has spiked in recent years from 18 to 22