i could concentrate on them. at some point in time, daddy has to continue to provide food, shelter, put food everything on the table so everybody can have the lifestyle that we're customed to. that's what i'm trying to do everyday of my life. i'm also trying to give back to my community. >> greta: at age 35 to have to reinvent yourself, you carried the ball you must have aches and pains. that's the one who walks with aches and pains to take it and not think my life is over and you see so many athletes who made a lot of money all of a sudden they come to a grinding halt. you reached down within and took it to the next level. and so positive and difficult haven't and you see this in your book. >> to me, your attitude determines your altitude. you are right i'm very positive about life. positive about a lot of different things. i try to have a positive outlook on the worst