bravery. he said i'm not any pwraeufr than anyone else. what i did anyone in the -- platoon would have done. josh was my friend. and i lost my friend in this. >> in is an incredible time. but it is kind of a bittersweet time. >> sean: despite his hero women and sacrifice he still does not believe he -- heroism and sacrifice he still does not believe he should be honored. >> the president: your courage prevented capture of a soldier and brought soldier back to his family. you may not believe you deserve this but your fellow soldiers recommended you for it. >> for these guys who are so close, there are things worse than dying. worse than dying is watching your best friend die and get dragged off by the enemy, even worse. that's worse than dying. in some way -- >> in some ways, i understand what he says it was not