>> he was much older, wiser, could see his own short comings. that was apparent the first time around. he determines no one will be closer to his son the first time around than he is to shawn. five years he just was, you know, a foot slugging parent with the stroller with shawn, looking after him. putting him to bed, singing him songs being the attentive dad that he hadn't been at all before. >> as the years went by, lennon seemed to be enjoying his new domestic lifestyle but the competitive rock star was still lurking inside him. >> he was watching what paul mccartney was doing and mix jagger was doing feeling that he should be there in the top 20. he didn't just cut off from this. >> when we return, a deranged beatles fan who considered john lennon's words and music ;7lasphemous begins to plot the