disaster. when wasn't in drug sessions with producer phil specter recording an album of '50s oldies recording rock and roll most of his time was spent in clubs where he was rejected for drunken behavior. >> it was a low point in his life. he drank too much. if there was anything negative i could say about my old pal, john lennon was a lousy drinker. >> although his former assistant had become his girlfriend yoko remained foremost in his mind. >> his only wish and only desire was to get back to the only woman he ever loved in his life which was yoko ono. >> i needed to be with her and could not literally survive without her. i just went to pieces. >> intent on getting back with yoko, john returned to new york and the couple reconciled in