describe it i don't think unless you've been there you kind of earned the right probably to write about it if you've been there but i think you haven't really really earned the right to write about it if you haven't been there. and i had to sort it was difficult because when i wrote from zagreb i had to go to this place this awful concentration camp. in bosnia called years and verge and. i felt i had to get permission from the people who had died there so i sort of stood in the sounds melodramatic but that's how it felt or stood in the cattle the the wagons transported the people on the train. the train is there so you can actually stand in these cattle cars and feel what it must have been like so i felt i had to sort of you know pray almost to the people and say look if i'm right about