so my journey has been extremely different than those who were inside the building and endured that terror that night. for me, my processing has ebbed and flowed. there are some days that are better than others. i can surely tell you that as we approach june every year, as soon as may starts to hit, you realize june is next and something just physically happens to your body. i don't know if your brain is overpowering it, but the more you anticipate june 1st coming, you certainly know it. your whole body knows it. your senses are heightened and you just are trying to figure out how you're going to cope with it. it's something we all feel here and something that is very co common. >> i want to ask you about some of the -- florida senator rick scott to make pulse a national memorial. it's expected that president biden is soon going to sign off on it. you've been working to raise money to build a memorial and