this? what you did in that moment and why somebody was there to do this with you? >> i believe in god. i'm a firm believer in god. but i don't think i deserved to live like some of those children deserved to die. i really don't. >> why? >> because it's not fair. it's not fair. one little girl saw her parents get killed right in front of her. why would you kill an innocent child? why would you do that? what in your sick mind would say, i'm going to kill a couple of innocent people today. >> hate. >> but how much hate do you have to have in your heart to do that. and to come to find out he had a vendetta against mexicans. mexicans are some of the most big-hearted people in your entire life. if you've ever spent any time in this town, anybody here would help you that they -- you didn't even know them.