>> in your piece you talk about a horrible assault that happened to you about 40 years ago. but you don't remember many details. what do you remember? >> i remember every detail of the actual assault. i couldn't tell you what month it was. i couldn't tell you if when i got to the man's office if his assistant was still there. it was, as i said in the piece, it was sort of after work hours appointment, which in retrospect should have made me suspicious but didn't at the time. so there were a lot of things i don't remember, but i remember in detail when he crossed the room and when he was on top of me. i remember how his breath smells. i remember how the leather couch stuck to me. i remember the things that matter. and that's what happens in a trauma. it's kind of miraculous really.