the time to be with us. how are you feeling today? >> i'm feeling a little bit better than when this all first took place. it's still very hard to admit to the realities of the situation. i'm still a little bit in denial of everything, but i'm doing what i can. >> i know that it's hard to process. i'm wondering, you've heard the news i'm sure about the sheriff's deputies that stayed outside the school, they did not enter the building even though shots were being fired inside. >> yes. >> what is your initial reaction when you hear that? >> well, at first i heard that it was just one officer, the campus officer, who did not go in. and although he was at fault for obviously not doing his job -- i know that officers take vows to protect other people before themselves and to jump into action. although he was at fault in that sense, i did have a little bit