and looking for advice or guidance or community. >> reporter: i met up with a man who you could call an ex-red pillar. he's out of the community now but he asked us to keep his identity a secret. let's call him josh. >> you know, as soon as i started to continuously not do so well with women, instead of thinking that it was me, i started to in a way, you know, blame them. >> reporter: in these forums, hitting on women turns into a game. >> they do recognize that, you know, women have rights, but only in as much as like these are rights that, like, you know, men have given you. >> reporter: it wasn't just about misogyny. these forums became political. hateful comments on topics like race and religion. >> i was, you know, to my eternal embarrassment radicalized by the right-wing politically. >> reporter: red pill groups are scattered across the internet but they were able to rally around a political mission in