blu belushi or chris farley, they'll say well, there was the great side of him. the side that would just take his clothes off and hang off a ledge of a building. that was the fun side. but then there was the bad side, the drugs and drinking. and you go maybe the two have something in common here. >> i'm a drug addict and an alcoholic. i didn't know for a while. i was in denial for years. i said i'm not an alcoholic, i'm not an alcoholic, i'm not an alcoholic. i was a mess. i didn't know what was going on. >> i think my dad and his friends did more cocaine than was ever in the movie "scar face." that became the thing that for a moment got rid of the pain. until you're clean and you're like oh, i'm just me. >> i did it so bad, dope dealers tryot to sell me nothing. now that's doing it. dope dealer say man, i ain't