those who have and are grieving. it's great to have you here on horrible conditions. >> i appreciate it. >> i know this has been an awful experience. and i know however therapeutic writing this book must have been, it must be difficult out there talking about the book and talking about dave. how are you? >> i'm okay. you know, going through this, it's the unimaginable. and those early days, months, weeks, i felt like there was this void closing in on me, this grief. i couldn't breathe. and i didn't know what to do and i said how do i get my kids through this because i was so worried that their happiness would be wiped away in the same minute that we lost dave. and what i learned is we don't have a fixed amount of resilience. it's a muscle and that means we can build it in ourselves and