baseball and the other stuff just came? >> that's right. and i played the game as if nobody was there but me. it's amazing, isn't it? >> it is. >> amazing. people went to the park. i didn't know that. i walked past my kids, i didn't recognize them. i was so enticed and focused on that game, huh? >> focused. >> focused on that game. it's amazing how it controlled my life. >> when you look back at it now, do you understand why some might view you as that trailblazer? do you understand it better as you got out of it and got older that wow! you were doing something special at the time and may not realize what you were in the midst of? >> i didn't realize that. somebody said you did this and that? what, hit a home run there? you did this and this? i didn't realize it. >> i'm sure you're aware the numbers of african-american