grown up -- once you got into adolescence, i suppose you could have identified me as an adolescent pedophile. but since i stopped doing that, i'm also showing that people can reform. >> do you expect you're going to have to remain in jail while this case plays itself out? >> probably but i hope not. >> will you make bond? >> i cannot make bond. i'm actually quite poor. >> you don't believe that raping a child is acceptable correct? >> no. >> you talk about fantasizing with children -- >> that's not rape. that's fantasy. and it's essential to the reformation of pedophiles i think. >> those are just made-up stories? fiction? >> they're semi true. i've picked up little pieces here and there from the internet and put them together, then rewrote them to give what i thought was an accurate view of some people. >> but not of personal experiences? >> not of personal experiences, no.