theater, and i was so obvious this sort of pie-shaped wedge of my visual field was missing, and it was sort of boiling and incandescent in one corner. >> what happened next? so you go to see your doctor? >> i tell my story. he listens. he nods. he takes his off thphthalmoscop looks at me, his head is slightly tilted. he's looking at me in a different way. i'm no longer his colleague or a usual patient. he has something to tell me. and he says that i have a swelling behind the retina. he's not sure what it is. could be a blood clot. could be a tumor. if it's a tumor, it could be benign or malignant. and he said, let's look at the worst case scenario. and i sort of couldn't hear what he said after that because a voice inside started shouting