that's not permissible. but aside from that, people drink and -- it's a different world today because of the scrutiny and the attention being paid to us. in my day, it was an old part of being -- as they used to say to sir lawrence olivier, what's your favorite part of acting? he'd say the drink after the show. it was all part of a world. and then when it started to replace -- when the cart was in front of the horse and sort of replaced the work and all other parts. i was reluctant to stop, but my great friend charlie lawton, he was a real influence, because he was my mentor, my closest friend. really begged me to stop for a while. just to take a look at it, and ask me if i would -- he had stopped for about a year, and i was continuing. and he was quite worried about