understand my position. understand that, you know, i can put myself in an environment where it requires for me -- where it may require for knee me to have a hand gun or artillery of that nature. >> larry: you can't do that. >> i'm instantly at a disadvantage right there. if i put myself in that environment, i'm at a disadvantage. so i just stay places where you know i can just be cool and i have security now. >> larry: do you take responsibility for a lot of what happened to you? >> i do. i take full responsibility for everything that happened to me. i'm not -- you know, even though in certain circumstances i was put in, i was considered a victim, but i don't feel like i'm a victim of society or anything else. i'm the first one to say, man, your life is what you make of it. society don't owe me anything, you know. i feel like for me to learn from