Blood soaked sheets on Maternity Wards without help. Evidence was given about babies who were injured during birth and many women said they werent listened to. Birth trauma is thought to affect 30,000 women a year in the uk, a term which refers to negative birth experiences such as serious blood loss and Emergency Cesarean is. One in 20 women developed post Traumatic Stress disorder. Its women developed postTraumatic Stress disorder. Stress disorder. Its really patronising. Stress disorder. Its really patronising, in stress disorder. Its really patronising, in my stress disorder. Its really. Patronising, in my opinion, stress disorder. Its really patronising, in my opinion, not to give women the information about what its like to have a baby because we are able to cope with this kind of information. The report from an allparty this kind of information. The report from an allParty Parliamentary i from an all Party Parliamentary group calls for urgent change, including ending the Postcode Lottery on perinatal care, call for a new Maternity Commissioner to be appointed and the government to publish a new National Maternity strategy. The report also calls for more support for partners of those having a baby and for ethnic minorities. The findings of the inquiry will be officially presented today and the Health Minister will set out the governments response. Louisa pilbeam, bbc news. Staying with the story, lets join the Nikki Campbell programme on the bbc� s 5 live as they take calls from people who have experienced this issue personally. Most other developed countries, the question we are asking, what the hell is going on . This is after the countrys first parliamentary inquiries into birth trauma has found shockingly poor quality in maternity services. It is estimated 30,000 women a year in the uk alone have suffered negative experiences. 0ne have suffered negative experiences. One in 20 developed post Traumatic Stress disorder. We have been talking about this for half an hour already on the radio on radio 5 live. You join us on bbc news. We had an incredible call from jess detailing every twist and turn of her nightmare experience. Currently on the line we have eugene yu. Hi, again, and hannah in hitchen. Youre talking about, pick up the story, three months premature, and then you are taken from one side of the hospital to the other. I think one of the things which a lot of people may want to address is the lack of communication, the message is not getting to you about actually what was happening. I think it was alljust a bit chaotic because as i said earlier i dont think i really believed how far along i was and then i was ten centimetres dilated, pushing, and having to be transferred to another room. And i was asking for quite a lot of pain relief. I was asking for pain relief and i was told to any it is too early, cant happen yet. I had had a little bit. And all of a sudden it was too late and i felt frustrated by that because i had been really clear with what i had wanted. And another thing that happened, there is quite a lot of shift change and a midwife came in and was talking about me in front of me and didnt know my name. Tojust have someone so blatantly talking and not knowing my name in front of me. It and not knowing my name in front of me. , ~ and not knowing my name in front of me. , ~. , me. It is Little Things like that, isnt it . Basic. Me. It is Little Things like that, isnt it . Basic. It me. It is Little Things like that, isnt it . Basic. It gave me. It is Little Things like that, isnt it . Basic. It gave me me. It is Little Things like that, isnt it . Basic. It gave me no l isnt it . Basic. It gave me no feelin isnt it . Basic. 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I felt like things were being done to me and it was happening around me and i didnt really have much control over it. But yeah, the counselling was helpful in between because the idea of going through the birth again when pregnant with my second was a really hard thing to contemplate. It sounds like you so needed it. Goodness me. Dont go too far away. Lets share experiences. You genie in a second and amanda in northampton. Allow me to go to amanda first. Thank you, amanda. Your experience, another very 1. Yeah, hi, nicky. It was very traumatic yeah, hi, nicky. It was very traumatic. From the moment i got in, i will traumatic. From the moment i got in, iwiii start traumatic. From the moment i got in, i will start from the actual story. I will start from the actual story. Iwas i will start from the actual story. I was actually in pain, i was induced i was actually in pain, i was induced. Within a couple of hours of being induced. Within a couple of hours of being induced i started having contractions. I basically got my husband contractions. I basically got my husband to go to the midwife and say im husband to go to the midwife and say im having husband to go to the midwife and say im having pain, and having contractions. She said no, you cant be, its contractions. She said no, you cant be, its not contractions. She said no, you cant be, its not possible, its not possible. Be, its not possible, its not possible, it isjust a reaction to you being possible, it isjust a reaction to you being induced. Sol possible, it isjust a reaction to you being induced. So i was like, 0k. You being induced. So i was like, 0k~ i you being induced. So i was like, ok. I believe it was a new drug they were ok. I believe it was a new drug they were using ok. I believe it was a new drug they were using. Sol ok. I believe it was a new drug they were using. So i was like 0k, ive had a were using. 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And i was like, ok. So i and have a bath . And i was like, ok. So i went, and have a bath . And i was like, ok. So i went, i and have a bath . And i was like, ok. So i went, i took my husband, brought so i went, i took my husband, brought the towel and sat in the bath brought the towel and sat in the bath i brought the towel and sat in the bath i sat brought the towel and sat in the bath. I sat in the bath for about maybe bath. I sat in the bath for about maybe two minutes. Within two minutes maybe two minutes. Within two minutes i maybe two minutes. Within two minutes i got out and said oh my gosh. Minutes i got out and said oh my gosh. I minutes i got out and said oh my gosh, i mean so much pain. I said i have gosh, i mean so much pain. I said i have to gosh, i mean so much pain. I said i have to get gosh, i mean so much pain. I said i have to get out, have to go to the toilet have to get out, have to go to the toilet he have to get out, have to go to the toilet. He said its ok, go to the toilet toilet. He said its ok, go to the toilet with toilet. He said its ok, go to the toilet with me in here. I went over the toilet toilet with me in here. I went over the toilet and screamed so loud, my son was the toilet and screamed so loud, my son was coming out of the other end. 0h, son was coming out of the other end. Oh. My son was coming out of the other end. Oh. My god son was coming out of the other end. Oh, my god son was coming out of the other end. Oh, my god. When i screamed, other eole oh, my god. When i screamed, other peeple started oh, my god. When i screamed, other people started coming oh, my god. When i screamed, other people started coming in. Oh, my god. When i screamed, other people started coming in. I oh, my god. When i screamed, other people started coming in. I couldnt l people started coming in. I couldnt even think because people started coming in. I couldnt even think because i people started coming in. 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Swinging between my legs back to the bed when swinging between my legs back to the bed. When i sat back on the bed the midwife bed. When i sat back on the bed the midwife came in and you could see she was midwife came in and you could see she was embarrassed that she hadnt believed she was embarrassed that she hadnt believed me. The doctor came and she apologised believed me. The doctor came and she apologised. Im so sorry. I didnt believe apologised. Im so sorry. I didnt believe you apologised. Im so sorry. I didnt believe you. I didnt even actually believe you. Ididnt even actually answer believe you. Ididnt even actually answer her believe you. I didnt even actually answer her when she stood there saying answer her when she stood there saying she answer her when she stood there saying she was sorry. Youd think after saying she was sorry. Youd think after all saying she was sorry. 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I had to come back to the hospital and the i had to come back to the hospital and the afterbirth fell out whilst i was in and the afterbirth fell out whilst i was in the and the afterbirth fell out whilst i was in the shower and it was a sight to behold was in the shower and it was a sight to behold i was in the shower and it was a sight to behold. I came back and i had to have to behold. I came back and i had to have antibiotics. And because i had to have have antibiotics. And because i had to have antibiotics i couldnt breast feed my son. The whole thing left me breast feed my son. The whole thing left me traumatised, not being able to breast feed my son, not being able to to breast feed my son, not being able to enjoy motherhood. You have this child, able to enjoy motherhood. You have this child, you are so looking forward this child, you are so looking forward to this child, and all the way through it isjust forward to this child, and all the way through it is just traumatic. 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It happens because you l people who are there. But its very. Reactive. It happens because you are in desperate reactive. It happens because you are in desperate straits. Reactive. It happens because you are in desperate straits. So reactive. It happens because you are in desperate straits. So thats reactive. It happens because you are in desperate straits. So thats the i in desperate straits. So thats the difficulty. In desperate straits. So thats the difficulty. I in desperate straits. So thats the difficulty, i think. In desperate straits. So thats the difficulty, ithink. In desperate straits. So thats the difficulty, i think. Difficulty, i think. Thats the really key difficulty, i think. Thats the really key analysis, difficulty, i think. Thats the | really key analysis, eugenie. Difficulty, i think. Thats the really key analysis, eugenie. Thank you so much. And likewise, thank you to amanda and hannah, amazing calls. Seema in croydon, good morning. Are you there . I cant hear you, seema. We might have a fader problem. Hello. Hello there. Is we might have a fader problem. Hello. Hello there. We might have a fader problem. Hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is, hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is. Hi hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is, hi. Ill hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is, hi. Ill be hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is, hi. Ill be right hello. Hello there. Is that seema . Yes it is, hi. Ill be right with yes it is, hi. Ill be right with ou, yes it is, hi. Ill be right with you. Torie yes it is, hi. Ill be right with you, torie. Such yes it is, hi. Ill be right with you, torie. Such an yes it is, hi. Ill be right withl you, torie. Such an important contrition coming up. Likewise yours, seema. Where you listened to . Yes. ~ ,. ,. Yours, seema. Where you listened to . Yes. ~. Yours, seema. Where you listened to . Yes. Yes. When you are having your baby, where ou yes. When you are having your baby, where you listened yes. When you are having your baby, where you listened to yes. When you are having your baby, where you listened to by yes. When you are having your baby, where you listened to by people . Yes. When you are having your baby, | where you listened to by people . No, i wasnt, where you listened to by people . Idrr, i wasnt, because where you listened to by people . Idrr, iwasnt, because i had first where you listened to by people . Idrr, i wasnt, because i had first of all tenures prior to becoming i had breast cancer. This was abroad. I had a mastectomy and a channel where they take your Stomach Muscle and move it to where they took out the breast which is the full mastectomy. I was told, i turned chemo down because i wanted to have children. Fortunately im still here and im fine. But when i got pregnant i was advised highly by my doctors abroad and also where i lived in west london that are not to have normal birth, it has to be a cesarean because i will not to be able to have enough power to push properly. Anyway, i moved from west to where i am at now near croydon. The hospital in our area am at now near croydon. The hospital in ourarea said am at now near croydon. The hospital in our area said no, you am at now near croydon. The hospital in ourarea said no, you have am at now near croydon. The hospital in our area said no, you have to do everything at this hospital, the gp told me that, that you are not allowed to go to your old hospital etc, etc. Ifound out this was allowed to go to your old hospital etc, etc. I found out this was all false, have a right to choose where to go with the nhs, which hospital i want to go to, especially hospital i was at previously. And they completely turned that down for me. They said, right, we dont pay for a cesarean, you have to have it the normal way, you have no other choice. If you are going to do a cesarean you have to do it private. So i was left against a wall and a stone. I didnt know what to do. So i went into labour, went into the hospital, the local hospital, not happy. Nothing was put in place properly because my original birthing plan was a cesarean. I didnt want to take the drugs, didnt want to take the drugs, didnt want to do anything i was given gas and i was given the injection, and i was given the epidural, still i could not push them i couldnt do anything, i didnt want the forceps. They forced the forceps. They said we have to do it otherwise the baby will not survive. My friend that was filming the birth for me, because thats my memory, i wanted to cherish that, i wanted to see my son come into this world. While i was screaming and doing everything, i didnt realise it but the lady that was helping, she said you are not allowed to film, its against the law. So she basically lied to my friend. I dont have that memory. After everything was over i was left there with my son for several hours. Its was over i was left there with my son for several hours. Son for several hours. Its not auainst son for several hours. Its not against the son for several hours. Its not against the law. Son for several hours. Its not against the law. It son for several hours. Its not against the law. It is son for several hours. Its not against the law. It is my son for several hours. Its not against the law. It is my rightj son for several hours. Its not i against the law. It is my right to have it film. Against the law. It is my right to have it film, actually. Against the law. It is my right to have it film, actually. It against the law. It is my right to have it film, actually. It is against the law. 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My friend tried to leave and she went out and tried to leave and she went out and tried to leave and she went out and tried to get someone because i was there with my newborn for several hours, after the birth nothing was done, i meant bleeding, getting weakerand done, i meant bleeding, getting weaker and theyjust left me there for several hours until someone else came in to clean the room. She said, you are still in here . I said, yes, ive been waiting, they couldnt believe it that they are just left me there and im still bleeding, not sewn up, nothing, i have severe incontinence because of that now, since i was 39 when i gave birth, so im basically like a ioo year old birth person that can hold their youre in or bowel movements or anything. Ive been putting up with this for several years and has been getting worse and other Health Issues because of it, and i cant tell you the embarrassment when you are in public and you dont have a bathroom around. Ive been wearing diapers since i was 39. And its all because of one thing that by law they were supposed to do a cesarean and they didnt. And also my son, the way he came out, being forced to come out with the forceps when i didnt want to use it and the stress and anxiety i was under while giving birth was beyond belief. My Blood Pressure had gone up severely, they didnt do anything. I was just left there, just left there. To die. Just there, ust left there. To die. Just left there, just left there. To die. Just left there . There, just left there. To die. Just left there . Yes, there, just left there. To die. Just left there . Yes, just there, just left there. To die. Just left there . Yes, just to there, just left there. To die. Just left there . Yes, just to bleed there, just left there. To die. Just left there . Yes, just to bleed and left there . Yes, ust to bleed and thats it. Left there . Yes, just to bleed and thats it. Fortunately left there . Yes, just to bleed and thats it. Fortunately the left there . Yes, just to bleed and thats it. Fortunately the cleaningj thats it. Fortunately the Cleaning Person found me because i couldnt walk and i had a baby in my arms, a newborn. , walk and i had a baby in my arms, a newborn. ,. , walk and i had a baby in my arms, a newborn. ,. , newborn. 0h, right, as a dad myself, four daughters. Newborn. 0h, right, as a dad myself, four daughters, we newborn. 0h, right, as a dad myself, four daughters, we had newborn. 0h, right, as a dad myself, four daughters, we had one newborn. 0h, right, as a dad myself, | four daughters, we had one traumatic experience, it is kind of triggering and it might be for a lot of people listening but these are extraordinarily bad experiences. They are all so brilliantly described by our viewers and listeners. There is a big response to this. Really big response. We knew there would be a significant response. There is a massive response. There is a massive response. So we will carry on discussing this after ten oclock. Thank you for letting me share. Listen, our gratitude to you because what you have said is so honest and so open, and necessarily we have to talk very openly about these things. But the impact its had on your life. It but the impact its had on your life. But the impact its had on your life. ,. Life. It is still impacting me, it has impacted life. It is still impacting me, it has impacted my life. It is still impacting me, it has impacted my son life. It is still impacting me, it has impacted my son even. I life. It is still impacting me, it. Has impacted my son even. When life. It is still impacting me, it has impacted my son even. When he gets into a situation of stress and something that is out of the social norm come out of everyday life, it has affected him because he has panics. It is something that has been with him. I try to stay calm and hes learning. He is learning. But he is 17 now and its been with him all this time, all this time. It comes out in your teen years. Unfortunately thats when it really comes out. Unfortunately thats when it really comes out comes out. Psychologists will talk ve much comes out. Psychologists will talk very much about comes out. Psychologists will talk very much about imprint, comes out. Psychologists will talk very much about imprint, the comes out. Psychologists will talk| very much about imprint, the early hours even which have a lifelong effect. There is lots of Peer Reviewed papers to actually back that up. Seema, thank you so much. Back that up. Seema, thank you so much. i i. Back that up. Seema, thank you so much. i. , much. Thank you so much. Thank you. Mariaret much. Thank you so much. Thank you. Margaret in much. Thank you so much. Thank you. Margaret in salisbury, much. Thank you so much. Thank you. Margaret in salisbury, too. Much. Thank you so much. Thank you. Margaret in salisbury, too. But margaret in salisbury, too. But torie, an nhs midwife, listening to this, what think . Haifa torie, an nhs midwife, listening to this, what think . Torie, an nhs midwife, listening to this, what think . How there. Firstly m heart this, what think . How there. Firstly my heart absolutely this, what think . How there. Firstly my heart absolutely breaks this, what think . How there. Firstly my heart absolutely breaks for this, what think . How there. Firstly my heart absolutely breaks for yourj my heart absolutely breaks for your previous caller and all the other callers. I would love to say that this is an uncommon story but unfortunately its not and we hear this time and time again. I think the common theme is that women are not listened to. And that is what i have seen as a midwife and what i personally experienced when i was pregnant with my first child. And it has since caused me to actually leave my role as an nhs midwife just because i cant be part of a System Thatis because i cant be part of a system that is so complicit in harming women and babies and i have been campaigning to actually try to change the system and change the harm we are causing. Harm we are causing. Interesting. You are a health harm we are causing. Interesting. You are a Health Professional harm we are causing. Interesting. You are a Health Professional but| you are a Health Professional but also as a mum you have seen it every which way here. Is it down to Staffing Levels . I which way here. Is it down to Staffing Levels . Which way here. Is it down to Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play a Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play a really Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play a really big Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play a really big part. I Staffing Levels . I think Staffing Levels play a really big part. There simply isnt enough staff to properly care for women, families and babies and children. But also there is a really toxic culture within the workplace particularly in midwifery and obstetrics, and that is causing, amongst many other reasons, a lot of midwives to actually leave the profession. So we cant recruit fast enough then we are losing. And actually a lot of the midwives that are working in at the midwives that are working in at the moment are veryjunior so they have a real lack of experience. Skill levels on the ward are not sufficient for safe care and women are being left traumatised after having their baby. And staffing definitely comes into it. Having their baby. And staffing definitely comes into it. Yeah. As ou sa , definitely comes into it. Yeah. As you say. Why definitely comes into it. Yeah. As you say. Why this definitely comes into it. Yeah. As you say, why this attitude definitely comes into it. Yeah. As| you say, why this attitude towards women, women not being listened to . Im thinking out loud. You get misogyny in all walks of life and women being relegated in that sense obviously still. It is a massive problem, albeit an unconscious bias, it is still there. My perception would be it is mainly women in that situation working in those services. So why . Situation working in those services. So wh . ~ ,. , , situation working in those services. So why . Absolutely, it is a heavily female dominated so why . Absolutely, it is a heavily female dominated profession. So why . Absolutely, it is a heavily| female dominated profession. And actually misogyny. You female dominated profession. And actually misogyny. Female dominated profession. And actually misogyny. You would think there would actually misogyny. You would think there would be actually misogyny. You would think there would be more actually misogyny. You would think there would be more natural actually misogyny. You would think. There would be more natural empathy . Potentially. And firstly i would say there is a lot of Internalised Misogyny In Culture And Society anyway. Secondly, what i would say is, even if you come in as a bright eyed, Fluffy Tailed brand new midwife who is really pro womens white democrats and womens sense of care, the Toxic Workplace and Bullying Culture will knock that out of you very quickly. And you might find that you will be advocating for a persons writes, really listening, and a sense of care but it is a system that needs to run in a timely manner and also be Cost Effective and it is not Cost Effective to allow birth to take its natural course, to maybe take some hours for things to happen, to allow it all to happen physiologically and naturally. Quite often we are rushing things along and we might have somebody in labour coping really well, it is all too slow, lets give her some drugs, a hormone trip to speed it up because we need the bed. And ultimately it does have to be Cost Effective, it does have to be Cost Effective, it does have to run as a business, it has to run as a system. The womans sense of care has been lost to the obstetric model which is very much rooted in misogyny. 50 model which is very much rooted in misoa n. ,. ,. , misogyny. So interesting. So how do we reverse this misogyny. So interesting. So how do we reverse this situation . Misogyny. So interesting. So how do we reverse this situation . I misogyny. So interesting. So how do we reverse this situation . I think we reverse this situation . I think we reverse this situation . I think we need a we reverse this situation . I think we need a whole we reverse this situation . I think we need a whole other we reverse this situation . I think we need a whole other show we reverse this situation . I think we need a whole other show to l we reverse this situation . I think we need a whole other show to unpack that. Trite we need a whole other show to unpack that. ~. ,. , we need a whole other show to unpack that. ~ ,. , | we need a whole other show to unpack that i think we need a whole other show to unpack that. I think in we need a whole other show to unpack that. I think in the that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, how that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, how we that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, how we could that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, how we could try i that. We could do it. I think in the first instance, how we could try to remedy it would be to potentially bring in a subsidised or even com pletely completely funded because at one time we were advocating for them and taking the time for them and the doula job role, we cant fit that in, everything is very anti spending time with that woman, we are constantly covering our backs, its very much a risk averse practice. And so a Doula Service would be a fantastic thing to implement because it would allow a doula, a Non Medically trained Birthing Partner and advocate to spend time with that woman so the midwife could get on with doing the more medical things that unfortunately the job role requires. Something like that would be really handy. Would be really handy. Thats a really interesting would be really handy. Thats a really interesting thought. I i would be really handy. Thats a l really interesting thought. I work with a grouo really interesting thought. I work with a group called really interesting thought. I work with a group called march really interesting thought. I work with a group Called March With. With a group Called March WithMidwives Manchester and its something we are campaigning for at the moment and we have put it to andy burnham and we are trying to get a Doula Service integrated into Greater Manchester particularly in the north west where many women are struggling to get the right care, here and everywhere, as your callers have kindly described. Ibtnd here and everywhere, as your callers have kindly described. Have kindly described. And very powerfully have kindly described. And very powerfully described. Have kindly described. And very powerfully described. Thank i have kindly described. And very| powerfully described. Thank you have kindly described. And very i powerfully described. Thank you very much indeed. Massive response to this. We are going to carry this on on the radio. Meanwhile, our viewers on the radio. Meanwhile, our viewers on bbc news leave us. Thank you so much to you for watching. Live from london, this is bbc news. 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