No, not really. N ot really 7 also tonight, the woman battling an eating disorder but trying to inspire others to be healthy. Being hot wasnt good enough. The only thing that wouldve been good enough is if my heart stopped. Thats the only thing that wouldve satisfied my anorexia. And later in the programme, like a duck to water, looking back at one of the most notorious sports finals of all time. Archive it was certainly the wettest wembley in history. In some areas, living with the threat of knife crime has become an everyday reality and one that gets vastly underreported. Next week marks a year since 16 year old irfan wahid was stabbed and killed in harehills, leeds. Our reporter, tracey gee, has been speaking to people, including members of irfans family, who are determined to change things for the better. Some people feel like they cant be safe in harehills. Around the streets, theres loads of crime and that and you need to protect yourself. You cant really trust anyone, really now, can you . I have reported on many murder cases, knife crime incidents and stabbings, but i get to go home afterwards and you are saddened by the loss of life, but imagine if thats your home, thats your reality, thats your family. Harehills, east leeds, is home for the boys at this youth club. Boys who used to be out on the street, some with a blade in their pocket. Screwdrivers, little table knives, anything that was sharp, to be honest, anything that could protect me from anyone else. Why did you carry it . Because it made me feel safe, thats what it was. It made me feel like a bigger person but, when i think about it now, it was stupid. Everything changed on the 10th of february, last year, when their friend, irfan wahid, was stabbed and killed. The 17 year old attacker said he carried a knife for his own protection. He is now serving time for manslaughter. When it is someone that you know, it gets to you. So you understand what could happen and the consequences. They set up this youth club in the wake of irfan wahids death. One of the leaders had a personal reason for doing this irfan was his cousin. The person you grew up with, who you shared most of your life with. Its. It is pretty shocking. It upsets me every day. Till this day, i still think harehills could be safer. I helped push kids off the street and bring them to here. I do not want one of theirfamily, or one of their friends to pass away. I wouldnt let my worst enemy feel the pain i felt. I would not wish it upon anyone. Yeah, weve got over 60 young people now attending. They brought most of the boys into the youth club by walking the streets and talking to them. The lads come to us because we are part of the community as well and they are not shy to talk to us. Some of the young people they come across are growing up in a culture where everyday objects, like these, are being used as weapons. Two of the boys who go to this club spent time in youth offenders institutions for possessing a blade. No one could fight with their fists, theres all these knives, hammers, and all sorts around. You say no one has a fight any more without a weapon . No one. What sort of things are we talking . Knives and hammers, screwdrivers. At one point, do you know what i did . Basically, i was in the classroom and you know the sharpeners, like, theres this blade part, i used to take that out and keep it in my pocket. You mean you were at school . Yeah. Do you still carry a knife now . Not really. N ot really . Obviously, if i feel i may be in danger that day, i carry something on me, but im not scared to cut someone in the throat, Something Like that. Doesnt it exacerbate the problem if you pull a knife on somebody . Yeah, it does, but obviously you have to stay protected. I dont want to die at a young age. Knife crime has been a reality in harehills for a long time. Four years before irfan wahids death atjust 16, Kieran Butterworth was stabbed just a couple of streets away. He was 17. When he got took away in the ambulance, a taxi had been driving past, and i stopped the taxi. Me, me mate, and me partner jumped in the taxi. When weve actually arrived at the a e, the ambulance doors were open, and the bed that they transported him off on was still outside, covered in blood. It is like ijust knew. My legs just went from underneath me. Everyday, its stuck in my mind, aint it, obviously. I remember him and the stuff we used to do. And that day is stuck forever. Guilty of murder, over £170 drug debt when you see that. It gets me angry. It werent even £170. He only owed the man £100. My sons dead because he owed a man £100 for cannabis. Sarah is kierans mum. Like a bomb just exploded and this big nothingness. Sarahs loss centres on a mission to stop other young people carrying knives. You have a picture here. Explain this to me . I go into schools and i spill my heart and i try to make a difference, to re educate these children that it is not good to carry a knife, that youre not safe for carrying a knife. I have been doing it ever since he died and i dont feel i am reaching a big enough audience. So she started a university degree. Im doing teaching, next year im doing counselling so that i can offer support and help lots of bereavement groups. Hopefully keep the attention on knife crime awareness in the community because it is getting worse. Knife crime is on the rise. Last year, West Yorkshire police made 481 arrests for possession of a bladed weapon thats more than one a day, and a third more than the year before. Sarah thinks the police could be doing more. Im hearing every day, this has happened, thats happened, somebodys been stabbed. Deal with it, put strategies in place to change things. As you can see thats a machete. A knife amnesty is just one of West Yorkshires police responses. We are working really hard to educate young people right across the force that carrying a knife is not the answer. You have dealt with grieving families. We have spoken to some of those grieving families and theyve said to us, the police force are not doing enough. What would you like to say to that . It would disappoint me that a grieving family that we have supported as much as we possibly can through very, very tragic and upsetting circumstances do not feel that we are doing enough. We do recognise that we have had an increase in knife crime but we are committed as a force to dealing with that, and addressing it, bringing people to justice and getting knives off the streets of West Yorkshire. Back in harehills, the street team are bringing boys on side. With this youth club and all of these guys, i do feel safer in my area because they do help out, theyre out there, theyre in the streets, and theyre helping people. Without the youth club, we would be probably be local drug dealers and no one would care but here everyone shows respect and they care about you. If you have a story you would like to tell us about, you can contact us on facebook or twitter. Coming up on inside out. Splashing fun we remember the Rugby League Game that descended into farce. Now to the story of a beautiful young woman who posts pictures of herself on instagram to more than 80,000 followers it doesnt sound particularly unusual, does it . But bonnie inglis photos are not about fashion or make up, theyre a statement about her recovery from an eating disorder that has dominated her life since her early teens. Shes told her story to lucy hester. 82,000 people are about to get a new photograph of connie inglis. Im just trying to figure out what clothes to wear for my picture today, for my instagram. Itjust depends on what im feeling and what i would say to myself that day. Connie posts images of herself to her followers in instagram most days. It is a visual record of her recovery from anorexia. I think people follow me because i tried to be truthful in my account. Rather than just show positive sides of recovery, i show a lot of the negative sides and how hard it is. Connies blog celebrates the fact that she is still alive. She has struggled with anorexia since she was ten and has been hospitalised three times in nine years. I do try and show the reality for what a normal body is like i do not photo shop, i do not use editing on instagram, i do not put filters on there. I do comparison photos of breathing in and out, sitting down, versus standing up, just the different ways your body moves. So im trying to say that all these things are normal and that most of the population has them and not everyone has to look like a victorias secret model all the time. Newsflash, you have a body, there is no wrong way to have a body it is completely yours and it is beautiful. Im beautiful, youre beautiful, everybody is beautiful so the next time body too small comes to play, remember what you know not what you think. Connies posts today is a kickback against bod body image. I do it still because i really love helping people and i think that it is really important for people going through recovery, especially, to realise they are not alone in their struggles. No matter how hard it gets, it can always get better. You dont have to give up. Do you feel like giving up sometimes . Yeah. Yeah, ido. Connie is officially in recovery, a healthy weight and recently discharged from Outpatient Care but two years ago she almost died. Thats from january 2016. I was emergency admitted to saint james. You seem very, very thin there. Yeah, i was bedridden and stuff like that so, i couldnt leave my bed without a wheelchair. Here, connie aged 20 weight about as much as a 5 year old child and was sectioned to prevent her from starving herself to death. I was a really low weight. My white blood cells were really low and my heart rate was really low so they admitted me and put me on a tube feed. I was not taking in any of the tube feed, i was still capable of pulling it out so they put a bridle in my nose, which is like a tube that goes around the back of the bone, so if you pull it out you pull the bone out. I didnt really care about living, dying, whatever. Ididnt mind. Ijust wanted to lose the weight, everything, cos it had gotten to the point where. Being in hospital wasnt good enough. The only thing that would have been good enough is if my heart stopped and that is the only thing that would have satisfied my anorexia. The impact on connies family has been huge. Years of visiting hospitals and being powerless to halt the illness. The last time, connie was in two years ago, um, i went every day at least once and we normally chatted if she was up for talking but. Unless i asked you to leave. If she wasnt up for talking and wanted me to leave. I was not a nice person sometimes when i was ill so i did frequently ask him to leave, tell him to get out, which was really lovely of me, sorry, dad. It gets worse than that. Yeah, but i do appreciate you sticking around even though i didnt at the time. I dont think you get a choice to stick around when youre a dad, darling. Yeah, i know. Did you think that she would die . Twice i think i did. She has such a strong will and but i always sort of believed that that will would be turned around and she would fight it. So even at the point where i was told she had a couple of weeks to live if we didnt do something differently, i do not think i ever really believed that that was going to happen but as her dad i probablyjust did not want to face that. My drawer is predominately sweets because i dont eat them. So these are sweets that you dont eat . So who bought the sweets, did you buy the sweets . I bought the sweets to try and eat the sweets because i feel like i should, but. You feel like you should be able to conquer that fear . Yeah. So, is that are those fear foods for you . Yeah. Which are the most difficult of those . Um. The sweets probably, processed sugar scares me. Mm hm. Why is it scary . I think its just left over from my eating disorder, like, i think its just a habit thats still there, that i subconsciously avoid them. So what kind of things did you try, what kind of things did you challenge yourself to eat . Milk, um. Cheese. Oh god, this is going to be a long list. Pizza, pasta, corn, butter, bread, noodles, fish. 0k. So all those things you found difficult to eat, so now youve challenged yourself and you have eaten all of those things . Yeah. Do they form part of your diet generally now . Yeah. Today, her attitude to food is a bit more relaxed. I enjoy cooking for people. It seems a bit pointless to spend an hour on a dish if im just cooking for little old me. Connie is eating rice and mackerel for lunch, a sensible meal, but she wouldnt eat it in front of us. Eating disorders are on the rise. Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric illness less than half of sufferers will fully recover. During ourfilming, it becomes clear that connie, while generally feeling positive, does struggle with her recovery and worries that she might relapse. I have asked for further treatment, not to do with my eating disorder but to do with the initial problems that caused my eating disorder. But. The nhs doesnt have enough funding to help, which is very annoying because it seems like. If im not starving myself, then no ones going to take me seriously. Despite her struggles, connie is making huge strides in her recovery. In her last year at leeds art university, shes planning an extraordinary installation for her final exhibition. Connie has made barbie and bratz dolls body pieces out of boiled and coloured sugar. Im really interested to see the colour thats starting to come through these. Can you talk a bit about your choice of colour palette . I was trying to make them all really bright colours, and ijust really liked the whole concept like the whole idea of it all being really appealing and sickly. Connies work is still in the early stages, but it will be an ironic twist on the pressures on women to be thin. A lot of young girlss toys do encourage poor body image, and people aspire to be this model like figure. If barbie was a real woman, she would not have half her organs, she would be classed as severely anorexic, if not dead. Did that strike a chord with you . Yeah, it was a bit. It was just ridiculous. I cant help but be struck by connies talent and vitality, but its clear that after ten years, shes still waging an internal battle between happiness and despair and hope and fear. The fact that i actually feel like i have a future is brilliant. I want to not relapse again, that would be really great. Id like to finish university. Im a lot happier than i was, and a lot more positive than i was in the depths of my eating disorder. We get our fair share of wet days but our next story is about a particularly soggy one. In 1968, the Rugby League Challenge cup final between leeds and Wakefield Trinity was played in torrential conditions. So much so, that it became known as the watersplash final. Well, 50 years on, leeds rhinos star Jamie Jones Buchanan has been finding out why the game has lasted so long in the memory. This weekend saw the opening round of super league, rugby leagues premier competition. 2018 marks my 20th straight season playing for the same club, leeds rhinos. But this year, theres another rugby league anniversary. Its 50 years since one of the wettest major sporting occasions in the history of british sport. Newsreel wembley, the Rugby League Cup final, leeds versus Wakefield Trinity. May 11 1968, wembley was poised and ready for what was undoubtedly back then the biggest event of the rugby calendar, the challenge cup final. The last time my club, leeds, had reached a final at wembley was 1957. Wakefield, on the other hand, had won the trophy in 1960, 62 and 63. The venue, londons empire stadium at wembley. Before super rugby, the challenge cup final was always played in may and more often than not, the weather was always warm and sunny, but the 1968 final, the heavens opened. Newsreel wembley was witnessing a soggy, soggy duel. Water polo players would have been more at home than the 26 rugby leaguers. It was certainly the wettest wembley in history. So much rain fell that day that for obvious reasons, its usually referred to as the watersplash final. Many people said the game should have been called off, but with 87,000 people in the ground most of which had travelled down from yorkshire the referee and probably the Rugby Football League said the show must go on. Newsreel 1968 Rugby League Challenge cup final. The rivalry between neighbours, leeds and wakefield, remains fierce, so i was more than a little bit nervous when i visited charleston Rovers Rugby League club in a former pit village, on the edge of wakefield. I was there to watch the game and to meet some people who remember the watersplash final as if it were yesterday. I wouldnt say it was the best game, i think its probably the most memorable Rugby League Game ever. This guy came rushing in about 15 minutes before kickoff, were all there in the dressing room. Youll never believe it, he said, its absolutely throwing it down. 0n slightly safer ground at headingley the home of my club, leeds rhinos i also met up with some of that 1968 leeds side. Were standing in the tunnel. This is it, boys, this is it. And we walked out into the sunshine, but its like a lake. The water covered your boots. Ive never played in conditions like that before, it was. Frightening at times. 0ne tackle i made, ian brooke broke clear and i were covering the cross and i took him down, and we slid 15 yards. Everybody was slipping and sliding. When somebody come in to tackle ya, it were like somebody diving in the two feet end and you were like. Trying to get water out of your mouth. But the climax of the watersplash final was still to be told. With the game already deep in injury time, leeds were four points clear. Wakefield trinity needed both a try and a conversion to win. And surely, there was no time for either. Commentator 0h, hes gone overfor a try hes got a try. Its a try its been saved at the last minute, try everyone jumps up and thought we snatched it. How did it feel when it went in . Did you think weve got this, weve done it . If you watch the thing, im jumping up and down like somebody was just deposed. You know, im so embarrassed. Im so embarrassed when i look at it, im doing this and giving it all this, and you know. But thats how it felt, it were that emotional coming out. I cant believe it. I couldnt believe it. Like this, and then were just waiting for don to kick it. Its a formality really, and don kicked the ball. Normally, wakefields goalkicker was don foxs brother and teammate, neil. But neil was watching the game from the stands with an injury, so wakefields fate and the watersplash final lay in dons hands. No pressure. How did you feel . Was he a player or was he your brother, or was he a bit of both . Did you have nerves, what was going through your mind . That i wish it was me who was taking the kick at the time. Right. Because don was a bit softhearted, he was a gentle man really. Yeah. And i was sat in the stand and thinking well, hes got to kick this, but this is a kick that i wouldnt have liked to have taken. Commentator hes missed it hes on the ground, hes missed it. Well, and there goes the whistle for time. What a dramatic. Everybodys got their head in their hands and hes in tears, hes in tears. Hes a poor lad, poor don fox. They alljumped up in the air and cheered. Poor old don were on his knees. I went across to him and said look. And moved on to celebrate. And it was clarke who collected the cup, not the wakefield captain. You can tell it touched a real nerve. Ive never recovered. You never recovered . No, 50 years on. Im damaged for life. Ive got friends wholl tell ya, you know, im a wreck as a consequence of 68. To me, it was an out of body experience. The bottom line is that we won. We were fortunate. Theres no doubt about that. Well, here with me, and its whike the trophy is being paraded around, must be one of the saddest sporting stories in history, don fox, whojust missed kicking that winning penalty. Don, it must be a desperate thing for a situation like that to occur . Shocking, shocking. I cant speak, im that upset. Anyway, ive got some tremendous news for you that i know you dont know yet. You have been awarded the lance todd memorial trophy for the outstanding player on the field. Yeah, i dont. Thank you, david. Any consolation to you . Er, not really, no. That match has been nothing but good for the game because people who didnt understand rugby, look at that. Does that 1968 final rank up there with one of the more special rugby League Moments in your career . Yeah. Its the number one, ive played five wembleys and i only won one. In may, its 50 years since that final. Theres been a lot of watta watta under thbridge since then, and some amazing games, but do you know what . I dont think youll ever see another game like the watersplash final. Thats it from here in leeds, but make sure you join us next week. Good morning. Time for your latest weather update. A weekend of two halves. For many of us yesterday was dull and drab. Today it has brightened up. More sunshine but a bit of snow out there as well. Our weather watchers busy so far today, capturing images across the uk. Some snow in Northern Ireland is, into scotla nd snow in Northern Ireland is, into scotland as well, into the pennines. From the speckled cloud on the satellite picture, a rash of showers set to move in today. Along with some wintry showers, mostly sleet, snow and hail moving in across the uk, some decent sunnis bowled as well. Isa is a snapshot at 3pm this afternoon. The light indicating where the showers will be moving in. Then a gap, and another one. Some accumulation is particularly into the hills, especially western scotla nd the hills, especially western scotland and Northern Ireland. The showers reaching easterly winds. A bit of wet snow or sleet associated with them. Temperatures down compared with yesterday. Feeling cold in the brisk north westerly winds. Into tonight, the winds still blowing, the showers into North Western areas. Both islands, North Western areas. Both islands, north west england, the pennines, north wales, the midlands. Further regulations over the hills of western scotland. Icy conditions where you have these as well. Southern and eastern parts will be clear, cold and frosty. A widespread frost as monday begins. Through monday, wintry showers into the north west. Even gradually after nic starts. Many, a lot of dry, quite sunny starts. Many, a lot of dry, quite sunny on starts. Many, a lot of dry, quite sunny on monday. Temperatures by degree or so higher for some sunny on monday. Temperatures by degree or so higherfor some of us. The winds picking up on the west late in the day. We have an atlantic weather system coming in. I suppose getting closer together, gales developing over the rest of coast. Moisture coming into cold air. This weather friend will produce some rain, sleet and snow. We could all season rain, sleet and snow. We could all season significance snow when scotla nd season significance snow when scotland going into tuesday morning, over the hills of northern neighbour does well. A week of changeable weather. Rain and snow at times. Some destructive snow. It will be windy to with gales especially in sutherland western parts. But by the end, it will be a little less cold. This is bbc news. Im ben brown. The headlines at 11 00am. The International Development secretary, penny mordaunt, warns uk charities that funding will be withdrawn if they fail to co operate with the authorities in cases of Sexual Exploitation by staff. The sector has got to step up in terms of tackling what is an industry that has been targeted by individuals. By paedophiles . Yes, they are targeting this because of they are targeting this because of the chaos we work in. The foreign secretary, borisjohnson, is holding talks in myanmar about the return of rohingya muslims. A report commissioned by a group of mps warns of major problems faced by children in england whose parents drink too much. Also in the next hour. Great britains Andrew Musgrave makes history at the winter