let me play for you this is yourself. you were talking about just what you personally dealt with because you were going through a lot and this book i have a copy here. you talk about your own personal tragedy that you had to deal with in the midst of dealing with this national tragedy. let me play a little bit of that and what you dealt with on january 6th. my youngest daughter tabytha was there with me on wednesday, january 6th. it was the day after we buried her brother, our son tommy. the saddest day of our lives. also, there was my son-in-law hank but the reason they came with me that wednesday, january 6 th was because they wanted to be together with me in the middle of a devastating week for our family. and i told them i had to go back to work because we were counting electoral votes that day on