now for over 30 years. so performing on stage and screen is part of the course. but it is a journey i ve done with a constant, unwelcome companion. i love myjob, i love being an actor, but it s a real struggle because i suffer from a condition called ocd, obsessive compulsive disorder. for me, that means i can obsess about anything, from a stain on a page of paper to the fear i ll injure myself from simply sitting down. it s not exactly helpful when you re trying to do yourjob. there are tens of thousands battling ocd in wales alone. i m off to meet some of them, to see how it is taking over their lives, and how they re fighting back. deon gorle lives with his family near carmarthen. he s had ocd for most of his life. for him, his ocd is particularly painful. he s overwhelmed by intrusive thoughts that his family will come to harm. she s gorgeous! whatever you do, don t fall backwards. why are you doing these compulsions, deon? what will happen? it s an overbearing feeling th