barrage. part of that is i just i was confused as to the fact that whatever her age was at the time of these various arguments, she was mid 20s to late 20s and into 30s, i couldn t understand how i had somehow somehow arrived at where i had arrived from where i came from in the beginning of my life, and worked for 30 plus years doing these things. it was astounding how wrong i was about everything that i had experienced within the film industry or within just life itself. you know, i was sort of not