we carry a stack of books to the hospital with us because we have 30-day stints in the hospital. we were going through a particularly tough time during his treatment. and all i had was the wheels on the bus, it sy bitsy spider. i love those books but it wasn t feeding my soul at a time we were in blake s treatment. and i wanted a message of fighting spirit even when the odds looked stacked incredibly high against you. i decided i wanted to write a book that i could read to blake even when things don t look like they are going to work out, you still have hope. for me and my husband, it is what essentially helped us to survive that. such a beautiful little boy.