News. so goodbye to our viewers. and you were talking aboutjust wanting to be able to look zara s murder in the eye when you read your statement out. we heard some very distressing testimony from some of the families of the babies who were killed by lucy letby, in court today. how was it for you standing there and reading out your statement, not able to lock the murderer in the eye? you statement, not able to lock the murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds- murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds. all murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds. all the murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds. all the time. murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds. all the time. one, - murderer in the eye? you know, i was in two minds. all the time. one, i - in two minds. all the time. one, i wanted the process to be over for my family. i didn t want it to linger. i didn t want to wait for him to come into the courtroom any more. i was grateful t