save american lives. and i was just so focused, jake, on the data and trying to get the right information out there when there was so much swirl of information. i was just focused on those elements and that s why i said those things. and i m not as polished. i learned a lot in the white house. i m just not as polished as many others were. i learned quickly, and i tried to not make the same mistake twice, but you point out a very important piece. and i was just so focused on what we needed to convey that day. yeah, you note that president trump came out and said that he had been joking, but you write, the media and the public saw through this. yes. he wasn t joking. we all reported it. and we all noted he wasn t joking. you say after the disinfectant debacle, things fundamentally changed for the task force and that you were increasingly sidelined as the months went on. you write, though the president